the end of the beginning
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i can be pretty pathetic but what the heck. the title of this image is sort of a program for me right now. there are lot of thing changing in the moment, and i won't bother you too much with details.

maybe the most important fact: i'm going offline for a while. i'm moving out my appartment, so i don't have steady web access for some time. i'll still see to check my emails and the board once in a while but i'm pretty sure that it won't be on a daily basis.

there are so many factors right now that i don't know what will await me in the near to distant future but it looks definitely pretty promising.

i'm post everything right now. i'm post graduate. i'm post salzburg. in a few weeks i'm starting a new chapter - moving to berlin with a handful ideas but no real concept at all.

anyway, i will see to keep things up. i hope to expand my knowledge and start getting money out of the whole thing.

right now i'm still at the level where i don't get anything out of the things that i really like - which means that i'm working on two different fronts - on the 'get some money to pay the bills' and the 'i want to do something i like'.

so right now i still believe that its possible to get to a level where the _want_ component knocks out the _must_ entity and i can do what i want and get paid for it.
lucky for me: i'm dickheaded enough to try it that way. i always wasted my time on things that feel important for me and i don't see a reason why it should be different in the future.

when i was a child i played lego all the time. then i settled to playing on my amiga and learing to torture my guitar. now its graphics and it seeems that this works pretty fine for me. i'm already in a level where i can decide how things should look like.

i'm definitely not perfect in what i'm doing. but the key factor is experience. with every pixel that i'm putting on a screen i get better with it.

my efforts on digital painting start to slowly work out - and right now i'm using the wacom for just 8 months.

but i already experienced the point where i realised that my resources are not unlimited: i had some tough times where my hands told me that i can't brush 24/7 without getting rsi. repeated strain injury. and boy, this hurts.