the end of the beginning vol III
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four years grammar school. four years gymnasium. six years a technical school for electrotechnics. four years an polytechnical study. woah.

after that i'm still alive. thats great. i mean, not everything was bad time but that lack of flexibility was hard for me to handle.

i mean, you had to be there, no matter if you wanted or not. even on the polytechnical university you have to be there. theoretically.

you can flex the whole thing that you have more time. but i could really have needed some assistance, not just facts that get drilled in your head.on the other hand some people did help in a way. somehow.

the thing i'm sometimes thinking is: how could it have been? such thoughts can kill you. really.

so what i'm doing right now is that i'm giving something personal. my own thoughts. i think its a good idea. the thing where i still have problems figuring out how much somebody sees and understands if he looks at a picture.

if there is no actual message, then maybe there is some sort of a submessage buried somehow.

sometimes i realise something that i made just afterwards. when bodyreactor was finished i looked at it and thought: woah, i made a modern primitive.

the stuff with photos can really work out fine. but the pictures have to work. and this takes a while. and if you have jpgs you have artefacts. lots of 'em.

and so if you make operations on 'em the artefacts even come out more. so you have to remove the artefacts if you really want a smooth picture. agh.

this was the cool thing about giftgas. i had a .tif from the photographer. woah. lossless. really cutted back the ammount i worked on the thing. but its hard to get some cool pictures that are sort of royality free. this sucks bigtime.

so i settled to webcams and private shots. webcams. girls looking out of their computer with a 320x240 webcam. cyberwhores.